trying my best to understand.

i hate it when people tell you that there’s a secret and make you want to know it so bad but when you ask them what it is, they won’t tell you because it isn’t “their secret to tell”. so really, why bother telling me that there is a secret at all? and i don’t know why it is so essential that i know it, it just is. i have to know it to move on. but maybe you’ve never felt like that before. and i do have the right to know it.

moving on. i searched my name on urban dictionary. (: hahaha. it’s so fun! and i think this one is the best description of me. not all of it is true, but for the most part.

“2. tasha: a girl in love with life. someone who longs for love in her life. normaly falls in love with a thomas. gets her heart broken often and inturn breaks other hearts to deflect the pain. but fun loving and easy to gain affection from.” and “1. tash: A name given to someone who is:
Extremely weird, unique, random and spontaneous.”

i am extremely weird. and i’ve searched other people’s names and i think they’re really accurate. haha. i have too much free time on my hands. but take a minute or two and try it anyway. they could make your day. (:

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it doesn’t stop you.

i love the pages on facebook. sometimes when i see them, i’ll go “THAT’S SOO TRUE!” and they make me feel like i’m not the only one who thinks so and that i’m not the only weird person around.

it’s pages like these; I wish i could spend my time talking to you instead of just thinking of you, oh great now that song’s stuck in my head all day and i only know 1 line., i really wanna talk to you, but i get paranoid and think that i annoy you., I can tell somethings wrong just by the way you text me., I Love It When You Look At Me And Smile :), I hate it when people say “SO?” when i tell them something., I redo high fives if they weren’t good enough the first time, I’ve already said “What?” 3 times, so I’m just going to say “Ohh”, i love when you text me first, cus then i know your thinking about me:).

hahaha. (:

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it’s been all I will remember.

firstly, i’d like to wish you

happy 90210! (: it’s crappy editing but still decent. and i don’t wanna waste my efforts. haha. (:

and, i’ve stumbled upon some superduper blogs and posts and pictures yesterday and today. thought i’d share, for once. (:

♥ top 5: it’s really really cuuute. :3 and i totally love the idea of it. (:
♥ this post on lelove: i can really get it and i totally love it! it’s sweet, warm, full of hope and happiness.

♥ radical self love on Gala Darling. (click on picture above to the page)
♥ this post on little reminders of love. <3 yaaay! blog love ftw.
♥ these pictures from Harper’s Bazaar. (again, click on collage for link and full-size pictures)

♥ this view of KL city. love it so much! it’s gorgeous.

okay, well i think this post is long enough already as it is. hope you liked it. (: i can’t stop listening to Crack The Shutters. oh dear God. help me.

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you’re gonna hear it when I shout it out loud.

April Tho, this is for you. because you know we love unicorns so so so much. i’m so so so sorry i left you again. right after screming in your ear. melovesyou. (: (: (:

i’m feeling so lovey-dovey nowadays. O: yeah, big surprise there. and i’m listening to Crack The Shutters!!1! i love it so much. Snow Patrol are like, pure effing genius.

Dear John.

i’d love a wedding dress like that! sho cute.

that’s makes me, too.

me likes this one! with the snow, it’s so pretty.

you cool your bed warm hands down on the broken radiator. and when you lay them freezing on me, i mumble, “can you wake me later?” but i don’t really want you to stop, and you know it so it doesn’t stop you.

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this is not a love story.

i’m so craving kiwis right now. ): i just finished watching Chuck vs. The Suburbs. twice. (: Chuck is so terribly adorable, i can’t imagine having to stop watching it. ahhh. and watching Chuck vs. The Best Friend right now. i’m so far behind. and Kristin Kreuk is in Season 3!!1! hyperventilating.

and i hope you know it’s you.

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she love you, love you long time.

♥ hi kittens. good day today? hahaha. i have no idea who my celebrity doppelganger is. so of course, i’m late for celeberity doppelganger week on facebook. ): sigh. anyway, i found these (finally) and thought they might sprinkle you with some positivity and lots of smiles.

here’s some of my favorites;

you do.

chin up, buttercup. ♥

your smiles will always light up rooms.

“A child can always teach an adult three things: to be happy for no reason, to always be busy with something, and to know how to demand with all his might that which he desires.”

-Paulo Coelho, The Fifth Mountain.

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and we ask her why.

what is love? to me, love is something that all of us love and  it makes you feel good, precious, fuzzy and warm inside. that’s what love is to me.

so tell me, my dear readers, what is love to you? leave me some answers. ;) ♥

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the queen of hearts.

“Three words. Eight letters. Say it and I’m yours.” -Blair Waldorf.

i forgot to wish you all a very, very awesome and lovely February! (: have a good month, kittens. this will be a good month. Valentine’s is this month. i’d treat myself to some candy. (:

and, i’m not sure to be sad or happy right now. it is possible to feel everything and nothing at the same time, isn’t it? and to get lost in your own muddled up feelings? i think so yes.

i’m Milk & 3 Sugars. (: which one are you?

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I’m saving myself tonight.

today, i sorta went “ahhh” and ran away from my friends because i saw that person who makes my head go haywire and say things opposite of what i wanted to say. oh dear. why now?

and a few times today, i stuffed my mouth with food and my cheeks were bulging and i smiled like a retard, too. (: i amuse myself so much.

found the gorgeous Alexa picture on Hayley Ann’s faebook page. (:

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nobody knows.

so i wonder if maybe i’ve done something wrong and i think back but don’t recall anything. i don’t like this, losing friends. or maybe that’s how it is for you, is it? just be the best of friends one year, and the next, you won’t bother saying hi. well, yeah, you know, maybe i’m not a good enough friend for you and no, maybe my feelings don’t matter at all. but i do have other friends. some, not as close to me as you were but maybe that’ll change. so maybe a few years from now, i’ll look back to last year and say, “hey i remember them. they used to be some of my very best friends. funny.” yes, it is very sad.

“Nothing stays the same. You grow up, make friends, lose friends, go to college, lose track of people, meet new ones and sometimes you ask yourself why. But all I can tell you is that every single experience you go through changed you in some way. Every new person who comes into your life changes you. Every moral dilemma or emotional experience you come up against changes you. It’s your job to decide how…”

-unknown.

i’m in one of those very low moods again, but i know it won’t last long. i’m sorry if i brought you down with me. but to those friends that have stuck with me, i’m not forgetting you and thanks.

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